Friendster- (i.e) join my friendster. this term sucks. i guess i'll just move to hipstir or stick to myspace and tickle account. my ego is bruised by this fickle and greedy internet program (whatever you call it).
Sana grumadweyt ako. Yun lang. Maski hindi na ako dumalo sa seremonyas ng pagtatapos, basta makuha ko lang diploma ko.
Kagabi.
Walang internet sa bahay kaya naisip kong ngayon isulat ang isang kahiwagaang nangyari sa utak ko. Oo. Pati ako nahihiwagaan. Parang sinabi ko na ring hindi ko na mahagip ang takbo ng sarili kong utak. Ang daming mga kaisipang hindi ko maintindihan pero gustong-gusto kong isipin.
(tawa)
Hindi ko rin naman talaga alam kung anong isusulat ko ngayon, eh. Wala na akong masyadong maisulat. Wala rin naman kasi akong maisip. Nata-tanga na lang nga talaga ako. Parang sumakay ako ng dyip pero 'di ko alam ang biyahe at...wala akong balak alamin. Parang kumain ako ng karayom at hindi ko rin alam na karayom pala iyon. Para ring tulad nito...nagsusulat ako ng mga bagay na wala akong kinalaman.
(hayyy...)
Ito na talaga. Hindi ko naman kasing gustong pag-usapan ang mga nangyayari dito sa Pilipinas o kung saan mang bansa pang meron akong interes at wala. Nawawala kasi ang parte ng utak ko na nagpapagana ng imahinasyon ko. Kaya pagtiyagaan.
Kahapon, sinimulan kong basahin muli ang "Ang Tundo Man May Langit Din". Matagal-tagal na rin simula noong huli kong masalat ang pahina ng librong iyon. Kahapong nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataong makakita ng kopya ay agad kong pinasaya ang sarili ko. Kinuha ko iyon at saka na ako tumakas sa mundong hindi kaiba sa istoryang nakapaloob sa mga tsapter ng libro. Hanggang tsapter 5 lang naman ako. Marami kasi akong ginagawa. Pero, hindi naman linggid sa kaalaman ko ang nilalaman ng Tundo Man. Si Alma, Victor at Flor.
(haysus)
Talaga ngang wala ako sa sarili ko ngayon. Sana'y makasulat na ako ng matino-tino sa mga susunod pang araw.
(special mention)
Ikaw stalker ka...layuan mo kung sino ang hindi sa'yo. Akin lang siya.
Finders, keepers. Jeepers, creepers. Weepers, losers. Paiiyakin kita.
Hahambalusin. Tatapunan ng pink lemonade juice sa harap ng madla. Tatadyakan sa utak nang ma-praning ka. At, haha, tatanggalan kita ng hiya. Ipapakita ko sa'yo na kahibangan lang naman ang ninanais mong makamit. Hibang ka. Daig mo pa si Sisa. Naghahanap ka ng karayom sa kalawakan. Oo, sa kalawakan. Dahil sa laki nito. Hindi mo talaga mahahanap. Tapos, itutulak kita sa Bermuda Triangle. Kala mo. Hehe (demonyo). Makakatikim ka ng pinya.
I
want
to
fall
behind
and
crush
my
soul
into
this
unending
darkness
I
am
yet
to
see
and
capture.
when friday the 13th becomes the day for love
Post Date: Sat Feb 14, 04:52:40 PM
February 13, 2004.
The date was nonchalant. It was a friday and a day before the much acclaimed Valentine's day. I expected nothing on that day-like I always do-exept the fact that I have been itching to go to U.P fair.
Luckily, mommy let me go. Hell to heaven! I felt nothing more than sheer happiness since I`ve almost been banned from going out on night gimmiks.
8:30
U.P Sunken Garden
The battle-of-the-unknown-bands has begun and I`m trying to enjoy the consumable fact that there is no way I`d ever be able to get in the covered walls of the venue. So much for having to sit on the spit-on-trash-site grassy area.
Poof! Reality set in. I`m with him. There`s no way for a little inconvenience to ruin the night.
We sat there for a while then walked for miles and miles inside the campus doing nothing, talking about everything and holding hands.
12:00
HOMEBOUND
On the way home, he suggested we cross the street. And right in front of Palma Hall, he said, "Happy Valentine`s!". I never gave that greeting much thought before because it was freaky and cheesy for a girl like me who seems to be on the verge of growing old and remaining single, thus, surprising myself with my inevitable reply of "Happy Valentine`s din!"
Sheesh.
Cheesy.
And tadah! To make things cheesier than ever, right in the middle of the field behind the admin building, I stopped him in his tracks, embraced him ever so tightly and danced the night away with some of the sweetest songs I could sing and words I never thought conceivable of.
*Sigh*
This article does not classify me as a very good writer but I`m in love. Deeply in love. And very crappy with writing about it.
Love and falling in love is a cycle that can never be broken by neither failure nor heartbreaks. There always is a second chance and endless chances of loving again and again until one finds the true meaning of love in the person he/she is destined to love until time ceases to count its days, months, years and hours.
I have loved and have been hurt. Countless times I have tired myself of crying and hoping that my feelings would not anymore be ignored and wasted.
I have been told that no matter how many times my heart gets broken, I will survive its pains and one day, see the light at the end of the tunnel of life and love become brighter. With this, I have developed a sense of observation with each and every person I encounter. I do not easily pass up the chance of falling in love but I do not get into that situation more often than needed and necessary.
I have loved and fought and lost. This time, if love comes around the corner again, I’ll grab his wings and let him soar me up high into the skies. I’ll never let him go and I’ll share my life with him until his wings envelope me when the day comes that we both retire in heaven where love seems to belong in abundance and unlimited glory.
I pray that I`d be able to write better posts. Somehow, I know I will. I just can't find the exact words and the time to do so. I've been thinking too much that my mind has become too exhausted to even lift its imaginary hands to create a stir in my long gone imagination.
Ikaw ang lahat sa akin
Kahit ika’y wala sa aking piling
Isang magandang ala-ala
Isang kahapong lagi kong kasama
Ikaw ang lahat sa akin
Kahit ika’y di ko dapat ibigin
Dapat ba kitang limutin
Pano mapipigil ang isang damdamin
Kung ang sinisigaw, ikaw ang lahat sa akin
At kung hindi ngayon ang panahon
Upang ikaw ay mahalin
Bukas na walang hanggan doo’y maghihintay pa rin
Ikaw ang lahat sa akin
Sa may kapal, aking dinadalangin
Dapat ba kitang limutin
Pano mapipigil ang isang damdamin
Kung ang sinisigaw ikaw ang lahat sa akin
At kung hindi ngayon ang panahon
Upang ikaw ay mahalin
Bukas na walang hanggan,
Hanggang matapos ang kailan…pa man
Doo’y maghihintay pa rin
Doo’y maghihintay sa’yo
Pano mapipigil ang isang damdamin
Kung ang sinisigaw, ikaw ang lahat sa akin
At kung hindi ngayon ang panahon
Upang ikaw ay mahalin
Bukas na walang hanggang
Hanggang matapos ang kailan… pa man
Doo’y maghihintay pa rin…
*para sa'yo mahal kow!*
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